Can anyone die out of shyness?
Or I could.
Alhamdolilah for knowledge, otherwise I wouldn’t have been alive.
Alhamdolilah for knowing about that woman who stood up while Umar bin Khattab RA was giving a khutbah, and she corrected him.
Alhamdolilah for knowing that certain things are okay if there’s a purpose behind it.
To me my name is ‘Awrah and any personal detail related to the real me is ‘Awrah…whether those are my good deeds or accomplishments.
And every time I have to share such things (or more) with or talk to unknown people to reach a conclusion pleasing to Allah SWT, it is painful, difficult, agonizing, a clear breach of my limits which I have set to remain ‘pure’.
That’s why men must have gheerah (protective jealousy) over their women , of course at a healthy level.
SubhanAllah, how Allah SWT eases your heart with knowledge…and how making His Pleasure as your goal, strengthens a weak heart.
Struggling as I am, I must constantly remind myself that I must have no opinion in matters Allah SWT has already decided for us. Perhaps the inhibition and resistance stem from the blameworthy kind of shyness. Allahu ‘Alam. If it’s really blameworthy, may Allah SWT destroy it. Ameen. It is therefore true that Shaytan comes through the door of doubts and only knowledge can slam it shut on him. May Allah SWT grant me beneficial knowledge to differentiate what is blameworthy or not, with certainty, a.s.a.p. Ameen.
It is not for a believing man or a believing woman, when Allah and His Messenger have decided a matter, that they should [thereafter] have any choice about their affair. And whoever disobeys Allah and His Messenger has certainly strayed into clear error. [Suratul Ahzab, 33:36]
[Tafeer of the Above Verse, you’ll have to scroll down a bit]
Really, isn’t this all Qadr? Then why do I have issues?
Time for seizing the reins of Nafs once again and being thankful.
Time to kick Shaytan out of my mental territory.
It is indeed to Allah SWT we belong and to Him we shall return.