بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
الحمد لله رب العالمين وصلى الله وسلم على رسول الله وعلى آله وأصحابه ومن اهتدى بهديه إلى يوم الدين
Sometimes our Paradise lies not where we seek it but in a corner where our stiff neck wouldn’t want to turn to. Our understanding needs to change. Our vision needs to change. We need to be more honest with ourselves. Is it really His Pleasure or are we seeking to please our nafs in things we say we’re doing for the sake of Allah SWT but we’re just doing it because it makes us feel ‘great’? Shaytan makes us pursue things which are less important for our Akhirah and makes us believe that somehow we’ll be able to ‘save’ the Ummah through it when our own personal relationships with Allah SWT and His Creations are ugly and need to be mended. It is almost foolish that you have a habit of hastening your Salah to be able to complete something that you have decided is for the Ummah.
It is better to be unknown than known. It is better to do consistent deeds even if they are small. Sahaba (may Allah SWT be pleased with them all) were leaders who thought globally but they ensured that they rectified their families and their local communities first. And most importantly they constantly rectified and purified themselves.
Stiff necks need to become humble and seek the honor in activities which the society doesn’t think highly of but are supreme in His Sight. As the salaf used to say that Allah SWT raises those who humble themselves for Him. Accept the Truth and the reality even if it is against your ‘dreams’ & background and way beyond your comfort zone! Make sure you control your emotions when you make decisions for life inshaa’Allah and make sure nobody else deviates you from it if it helps you for Akhirah.
You’ll be alone in your grave facing what you’ll have to face! So seek to find out what’ll help you there and do not focus on just here. Prestige and honor in the grave may sometimes seem ‘humiliation’ in this dunia. But isn’t Paradise surrounded by hardships? And isn’t hellfire surrounded by unjustified desires? Realize that in this world we’re amidst delusions. Things are not what they seem.
اللهم أرنا الحق حقًا وارزقنا أتباعه وأرنا الباطل باطلًا وأرزقنا اجتنابه
And Allah SWT knows best.