بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
الحمد لله رب العالمين وصلى الله وسلم على رسول الله وعلى آله وأصحابه ومن اهتدى بهديه إلى يوم الدين
Have you ever felt so rushed in your daily tasks, so consumed in your present struggles and so surrounded by your future’s concerns that you never calmed down enough for your next Salah? The prayers you whisper suddenly becoming meaningless as your mind is calculating what’s next that has to be done or your whole being vibrating like a broken alarm…your ears ringing of your baby’s cries but he isn’t really because you know he’s asleep. Through the corner of your eye, you can see him sit up on the edge of the bed and your heart skips a beat.
Uh not now! Just when I’m in my last Rak’ah.
But you know again, very well that, my lovebug’s fast asleep. All this and more, only in Salah. It could be different for you. Maybe it’s university-related or perhaps work-related concerns. It could also be images flashing in front of your eyes while you’re in Salah of what your eyes have consumed during the day. This is possibly true for those who waste time via TV. Whatever it may be, you realize, that months are passing you by at the speed of light but you really never sat down to make a du’aa in your Salah. You know the proper kind which shatters your soul’s frozen core. The kind you feel has reached the Heavens due to your sincerity in it. The kind in which you were so absorbed that when you’re done, you suddenly feel the stinging of your hot tears on your cheeks. That kind.
They say life happens. It so very much has happened to me as a mother to now a 10 month old mashaa’Allah. I feel like I lost this last Ramadan with regards to making some beautiful du’aas. I also feel like I lost the past Dhul Hijjah and its precious 10 days. It’s like opportunity after opportunity is slipping out of my hands and with months nudging me off my feet and racing ahead of me, my condition is still not changing.
I badly want to be one of those who makes beautiful du’aas but my racing, over-anxious mommy mind is not letting me. It’s just so hard to think of me in moments of me. And now with a diagnosis that has forced me to think of me, I feel overwhelmed.
I want to say so much to Allah swt. I do. I need to.
Everytime I hold it in, I know I break into a million pieces.
I need that connection with my Rabb…
Yet, I’m always so worried about everything that I just cannot be mentally present to make a du’aa.
Rasulalah salalalahu ‘alayhi wasalam was not like this.
The more troubles knocked on his door, the more connected he salalahu ‘alayhi wasalam became with Allah swt. He just talked more to Allah swt. His du’aas became more and more beautiful the more he salalahu ‘alayhi wasalam was tested. Sure, he was a human being. I’m also very sure his heart raced and anxiety hit him just like us; an evidence for that is in the du’aas for anxiety which have been preserved for us to use. In other words, Rasulalah salalahu ‘alayhi wasalam was a man in whose chest a heart beat. A live heart.
But a heart which unveiled its anxieties to Allah swt in the form of du’aas first.
Not only him but all the Prophets. They all expressed their fears and anxieties to Allah swt.
They talked to Him as if they could see Him. They felt Him walk with them in their trials. They made du’aa as if their du’aa was already answered.
From Nooh, Ibraheem, to Moosa, Zakariyyah, Ayyub and so many more…’alayhim salam.
They went through tougher situations but they weren’t that distracted that they couldn’t talk to the One who mattered the most. The Greatest Ally. Al Wali. The Protecting Friend. Our Rabb.
I think if we only talked to Him as much as we talked to others, our lives would change for the best. Quite literally. Perhaps even overnight. And I’m not being melodramatic here.
I came across a beautiful du’aa that he salalahu ‘alayhi wasalam has been recorded to have made during the critical moments of making secret Hijrah to Madinah in Imam ibn Katheer(R)’s book on Seerah. We will leave the discussion on its authenticity to the hadith scholars and for now just reflect on its beauty for we find many similar du’aas made by him salalahu ‘alayhi wasalam anyway.
Think about how time sensitive such a moment may have been. How many thoughts may have plundered his mind. And how heavy the mission of spreading the Message he salalahu ‘alayhi wasalam may be feeling yet he wasn’t too busy to talk to Allah swt. He wasn’t too preoccupied with all the things that could go wrong or have gone wrong. His du’aa depicts the essence of his Tawheed and therefore his true devotion despite the urgency of the moment. A du’aa of a true ‘abd. SubhanAllah definitely something worth pondering about:
It is said that language was created for us to talk to Allah swt so let’s use the gift of language to converse with Him inshaa’Allah.
May Allah swt help us use our tongues for du’aas which make us beloved to Him and make Him boast of us to the Angels in the Heavens. Ameen.
Let’s revive the Sunnah of pausing in times of urgency and making du’aas no matter how anxious we feel.
Let’s try to seek comfort in Salah by talking to Him in our Sujood and laying down our burdens on the ground in front of Him.
Before we send any email, message or decide to call, let’s make a du’aa to Allah swt first.
Let’s live to enjoy our Salah and our du’aas.
Let’s for once…aim to give Allah swt His Haqq inshaa’Allah.
And Allah swt knows best.